Through my gratitude work and meditation, I’ve realised my current reality can be summed up in one word, “uncertainty”! Starting my own business, the post-Global-Financial-Crisis economic environment, limited finances and a partner who is currently job seeking (and on a beautiful journey to find fulfillment) equals uncertainty. But so fricken what! Uncertainty is just uncertainty. Nothing else. It doesn’t justify worrying or being afraid. It doesn’t automatically equal insecurity. It doesn’t mean the future is shaky. It simply means the future can’t be predicted exactly. And oh my goodness, as we transition into a new era, what a great place to be.
I decided a few years back that certainty must be a really good thing to have and having it meant you had your shit together and you were in control of your life. Not having it meant you were flaky and circumstances were controlling you rather than the other way around. I no longer believe that! Being flaky is being flaky and I’ve been that too but certainty is something scared people need in order to not feel afraid. Certainty is an illusion and believing in it can keep you trapped in the mundane or in something you hate.
Inviting uncertainty into my life has been VERY uncomfortable and lots of my default coping mechanisms have re-emerged. However, one by one i’m sorting through them, reframing things and letting them go. Acknowledging that uncertainty is just uncertainty and doesn’t mean anything unless I make it mean something has been extremely liberating! Now I’m beginning to really appreciate how exciting life can be; the concept that anything is possible actually feels real; I’ve discovered i have great desire and passion burning in my guts; I’m taking responsibility for my “unhelpful” behaviours and with kindness and forgiveness I’m letting them go AND my emotional and spiritual intelligence is soaring.
Being out on the skinny branches may be terrifying at times but OMG the rewards are great. XXOO
